This i the winner's http://bit.ly/76gPjV
and this is mine http://bit.ly/8ucnX7
The winner got a buttload of merch from like 5 different bands and I get a bracelet for being "a close second"
I is not a happy panda....
That took me forever to draw !
I finally had a legitimate convo with him
(p.s. Obvs I lied on Twitter, I know you all loves me ^_^ I just really needed him to answer me)
It was really just one big misunderstanding
We were both having bad weeks and took it out in each other :P
We're all good now
We talked for 5 straight hours, lol
Just like we used to ;D
He likes me too >.< heeheehee
I had to force it out of him >:)
But I won!
(speaking of winning Bryant owes me a shirtless twitpic to prove he has a six pack)
Its so funny tho, I was answering Formspring questions all day and Seth kept popping up in them, lol.
Someone said we would look cute together, haha ;D
idk, haha, I'm just really happy right now and hope nothing breaks me down :)
Talking to you made my life a little better, but now you're ruining it. You're ripping me to shreds and you don't even realize it. I don't know, maybe I shouldn't have fallen for someone with depression. You're stuck in the hole you've dug, and every time I throw you a line you pull it in with you.
I don't want to be depressed anymore.
People don't realize just how much they need me when they lose me. Nia realized it too late. Now her life is in the trash and she's categorized as a slut.
I know for a fact I was one of the few people that made you smile. But you just keep pushing me away. I'm gonna try and program my heart to say I don't care about you. I shouldn't be in this much pain about someone who obviously doesn't care about me. Goodbye.
Oh, one more thing. I was crying as I wrote this. Add that to your conscience.
I just want it to stop
I know you dont mean to hurt me
Its your nonchalance thats cutting me deep
My heart hurts
I'm dying inside
I'm trying to get over you
Since that's what you want
I'm trying to lie to you
Since that's what you want
You say no one cares
Am I no one?
I've never been in so much pain
I'm beyond stressed
And all I want to do is cry
Just make the pain go away...
I seriously just might not tell anyone I like them anymore. It never goes over well for me. I'm all confident then I just deflate. It happened first back in middle school.
Cept with that, I was humiliated to no end. But now I'm over it. Sorry, but I dont want someone that sleeps around and cheats.
First, I told him Ellen thought we should go out. He was confused on why I didn't want to tell him that so he was like "why is that bad? I mean I have nothing negative to say. I just live wat to faraway". Then I told him I liked him and conveniently my phone loses its signal... The convo was picked back up this morning. It was all just really complicated and ended up upsetting me in the end.
It was like he didnt want me to like him. He kept putting himself down, acting like he was nothing.
I'm just not gonna say anything next time.
Sometimes, I really hate my confidence.
Everything feels awkward now. But probably only to me...
I'm beating around the bush, you all want to know what I'm talking about. Well... NO! I'm not giving in twice. I didn't even tell them right off. I wrote all the words backwards then put the whole thing backwards... it sounded like s good idea at the time...
So what have we learned today?
That Chloe should keep her mouth shut and obviously her signal disappeared for a reason.
I hung with Ellen, Sarah and Kasey yesterday. We rented House and I'm pretty sure none of us really watched it. Afterwards was just random. Here's one a sample of one of me and Kasey's convos.
Kasey- "Toge toge prriiii!!"
Me-"Pika pika. Pika chu?"
"Charmander charrr... Dude! Charmander sounds like Charlie the unicorn!"
"We're going to Candy Mountain, Charlie. Candy Mountainnnnn!!"
"Shun the non believer. Shuuuuuunnnnn"
Hahahah it was a great night. Oh and some of our funny moments watching the movie
"There's a garager now?"
"Someone missed the potty"
"Ew! My Eye! It touched my eye!"
"I'm being molested." "Want some pie? It'll be our little secret."
Haha, you had to be there
- After Midnight Project
- AM Taxi
- Andrew W.K
- Artist Vs Poet*
- Attack Attack
- Automatic Loveletter
- Breathe Carolina*
- Breathe Electric
- Bring Me The Horizon*
- Closure in Moscow
- Deals Gone Bad
- Disco Curtis*
- Every Time I Die
- Eyes Set To Kill
- Face To Face
- Fake Problems
- Far From Finished
- Fight Fair
- Flatfoot 56
- Four Year Strong*
- Haste The Day
- Hey Monday
- Hot Chelle Rae*
- I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business
- ice nine kills
- In Fear And Faith
- Left Alone
- Mayday Parade*
- Mike Posner
- Of Mice and Men
- Parkway Drive
- Pierce The Veil
- Reel Big fish
- Riverboat Gamblers
- Set Your Goals
- Suicide Silence
- Sum 41
- The Cab
- The Casualties
- The Dillinger Escape Plan
- The Reverand Peytons Big Damn Band
- The Rocket Summer*
- The Sparring
- The Summer Set*
- The Word Alive
- Tip The Van
- We Are The In Crowd*
- We The Kings*
- You Me At Six*
I also emailed Jay about what you'd have to do to be a manager. He hasn't gotten back to me yet. Idky, but lately I've really been wanting to do something in music... Maybe not managing, but something. I can be a Merch Girl for all I care, just as long as I'm in the business.
continued when I get to a computer)
I really dont know what else to talk about...
I'm trying to go to this concert tomorrow. Its Every Avenue, Callahan, The Summer Set, Sparks The Rescue, The Audition and Ian Walsh. I reeeally wanna go.
This was hella pointless brah.
Dude, he said this while we were in the school library. We were dying, haha.
Christa- No! i mean I like em, I just \...
Justen-Ohhh! you can look but you can't touch.
Christa- Conor has three stomachs
Me- So he's a cow
Kenneth- Cow's have four stomachs
Me-So he's a cow
Kenneth- Cow's have four stomachs
Conor- Actually I have six stomachs
Me- See, he's a mutated cow.
Christa- That explains all the nipples.
Alex- So youre a bastard child
Christa- Dont call me that
Alex- but thats what it is
Christa- i dont care, dont fucking call me that!
Alex- Fine whatever
Christa- Just...dont fucking call me that.
Kenneth- you turn right, turn right, turn left, turn left, til you almost his a wall then make an immediate right.
Daniel- It looks like pond water
Casey- Its not! Just drink it. i'll give you a dollar
Daniel- you said it was slimy!
Casey- Its no-- I was joking. Its just a little thick...and green. Chad! Drink this!
chad- What's in it?
Casey- Dont worry about it
Cierra- Now you know its nasty, haha
Jesse- No! No, no! turn around Joey, don't even come in here.
Seth is fun when he's sick, haha. He straight up loses brain cells. I mean he's already random, but the randomness is above maximum when he's sick. Nhat Ha said I should post some of our random convos. Next time I'm on the phone with him I'll see if I remember that.
He played a trick on me, the jerk lol. Unlike most people tho, I didnt believe it. I didn't think he was behind it tho. He just kept laughing and I was like what? Its funny because he acts all innocent, so then you KNOW he did something.
I swear I post more blogs about him then I do myself
I had to email Music.Com again because my cd hasn't come yet. Shawn said it might've been because of the holidays. Uh-huh... And that I should get it this week. Uh-huh... We'll see.
In other news Tanner Howe is drop dead sexy. <3
Since construction is going on, two of my classes were moved. They moved the office to, and now the bell and intercom system is just screwed up.
Today was just bad.
The printers were effing up. I got confused looking for the new classrooms. Just bad...
sexually abused by her father! What a way to end a book!
My dad has been distant lately. I keep saying to myself he doesn't hate us... but how can I be sure?
The song was LA This Time by Phil Bensen. I like anything by Bensen so I'm cool with this.
I also decided to do a song of the month. So I used the second song that shuffled by. And it was Trouble by NeverShoutNever. Also another good choice. This was a song Christofer Drew actually wrote on his ukulele.
I'm not gonna lie, I would have died laughing if either song was a Christmas song, since I don't really take songs off my pod.
But yea, hopefully I can stick with this.
Good morning 2010; Good night 2009
You were a rough year, but a great year :)